late night confessions

  • when i’m in a sad mood i make myself even more sad so i can cry and let it all out. this usually means repeating sad songs or watching The Time Traveler’s Wife. shut up. Rachel McAdams in a wedding dress and the ending and SOOOOB.
  • i had a bacon cheeseburger, fries and a chocolate lava cake for dinner. i’m basically in the fetal position and filled with regret right now. WHY. my stomach is so unhappy with me
  • i just watched like 3 episodes of “Say Yes to the Dress” and i’m feeling pretty full of self-hate/regret/shame right now. i dislike 90% of the dresses on the show but it’s still my guilty pleasure.
  • i hate when i go to sleep thinking of someone/something i don’t want to be thinking of, and wake up with the same thought. i hate it.
  • for the last month i’ve been waking up 1-2 hours before my alarm goes off because i’m paranoid i’ll sleep through it (i think this phone only allows one alarm?? blackberry anyone?) IT IS ANNOYING and i curse, squint in the sunlight, check the time and then go back to sleep.
  • i really feel like drinking and sitting under the stars. 
  • i hope i have one of those really crazy, incredibly happy, perfect-moment type of dreams. waking up is heartbreaking but i need it, i think.
  • i’m thinking about doing some writing kind’ve…travel writing themed. may post them on this tumblr later for feedback.
  • i’m a huge introvert. i always feel like i’m faking anything remotely extroverted or friendly.
  • why the fuck am i posting this
  • oh who gives a fuck its myyyy blooooog
  • i really want to give blood again but I can’t until june because i went to nepal. i think it’s the only real good thing i’ve done since high school. donating blood that is. ugh.
  • i used to be a good person. honest.
  • I’ve been replayingHow We Loveby Ingrid Michaelson for the last couple days. i think i identify with some of it.
  • my ideal life: living on an italian villa with friends, driving a really badass bmw, being insanely rich and buying awesome clothes/shoes, having 3 labradors, paint like a boss, play the piano like a boss, know what the fuck i’m doing when drinking wine/beer, have beautiful home, speak french fluently,  join the x-men and save the world.
  • the end

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